I can’t cope with my emotions, there up and down. There is no middle ground. Some days are worse than others and when your told your grumpy by others it only makes things worse. I get stuck in these moods, in a dark place that I just can’t get out of, I’ve found ways to deal with it in the past but lately it’s become difficult and hard to overcome.
I hate it when I’m snappy and grumpy especially with my kids. I feel like it’s got so bad now that it’s affecting them. I don’t want to mess up my kids. It’s my biggest fear, that my own mental health issues affect them.
Since I began this pregnancy my hormones have made things worse and the medication they have made me change to isn’t helping as much as it used too. I decided to speak to my doctor who after many years of simply telling me it was depressions and switching medications referred me to a pycologist. I’m hoping this helps and gets me some real answers on what’s wrong with me. I know it’s more than just depression but I’ve never got further than a questionnaire at the doctors so at least we’re getting somewhere.
BPD and managing life! 